Here I am and Here it is.

I am completely and utterly upset with myself and how I let a class full of business majors/conservative capitalist get to me. I had a speech on overconsumption and consumerism and somehow managed to involve myself in a debate about economics, which I hate. Anyway, after I was through being bashed during q/a I sat back down at my seat and went through this whole self analysis and started to really bring myself down. I get so nervous and frustrated in front of people....it's truly severe stage fright...if I may call it that. The audience got off topic and I didn't say all the things I knew I could have and I wasn't even able to bring them back to my initial purpose of my speech. I felt like they had won and I looked like some idiot liberal who knew nothing. I wanted them to take away something positive, not stick with their individualistic views of life. Of course, I always overanalyze situations so I'm probably going to go through some state of depression before the week is over...yes over a silly bad presentation. Thats me, that's how i deal. Granted, it will probably lead to me having a stroke due to stressing out so much, but I'll have to manage for the time being.